Any fool can turn a blind eye to reality. It takes a special kind of idiot, though, to ignore a dream. I am just not that crazy…Yet!!! I cannot possibly forget about the great hope I hold so dear. Maybe it is just a fantasy but, I feel an overwhelming urge to pursue it. That very slight chance of success is enough to put fire in my belly and enthusiasm in my heart. I may or may not be about to get what I want, but I know at least I may discover that trying for it is rewarding in its own right. As highs get higher and lows get lower. My energy, too, tends to come and go in dramatic ways. One moment I feel full of beans, the next, full of lethargy and exhaustion. Under some strange influence I easily become disconsolate or disheartened. It gets very difficult to see anything in the proper perspective. As I think about what's making me nervous, anxious or restless, I feel maybe ....perhaps it is less of a threat than I fear...
I thought about ..."Life is what happens to us while we are busy making other plans." ...maybe it's fine to have an unfulfilled ambition, as long as we feel okay about the fact that we have not yet reached our goal. If, though, something makes us anxious or unhappy every time we think about it, we need to change our relationship with it. Then maybe I should try letting go whatever it is I feel so inclined to cling on to. Maybe, that's all I need to do. And, if I really can't? …Or maybe I should just stop planning and just ...!!!

Is it not true that sometimes, the best way to find something we are looking for is to look for something else instead? Mainly because When our attention is too closely fixed on one item, we lose the ability to see the whole of our situation from a distance!!! ...I guess sometimes standing back seems inappropriate...But it's only when we do, that we realise how much more clearly we could have been seeing things.

ummmm...I seem to have brilliant insights....only if I would stop trying quite so hard to control everything!!!