We all need friends...Don't we? Without them, we would have nobody to criticise us, confuse us, help us waste time and give us dubious advice. Enemies, you see, just can't get close enough to create such trouble. I am now kind of starting to wonder what my friendships , particularly a friendship is all about. If a certain someone is truly on my side, they have a funny way of showing it. Perhaps time will prove me wrong and I will realise that I have worried for no reason...Perhaps at some point I will get some clarification and confirmation and understand much more about my friends behaviours... and maybe that will make me feel much better and learn how much key relationship really means...may be I will be able to distinguish between the real things...with time!

They say, 'Patience is a virtue', as if they are trying to sell the stuff to us. It is not, though, some optional lifestyle accessory. It is a screaming necessity. Without it, we can achieve very little and enjoy even less. Besides which, if they really want to convince us of its desirability, they should describe it as a vice. Ultimately, we are all much more attracted to what's naughty than we are to what's good for us. Maybe I shouldn't worry, perhaps there really is no great need to make some enormous effort. Perhapas I should just wait and what I need will come to me...!!! ya right! ha!

Why are intelligence tests so difficult? Because they have been designed by some rather stupid people, who feel that you can measure a person's merit by their ability to perform a bunch of unimaginative calculations that are far better suited to a computer. But we are humans, not machines. We have depth, sensitivity, wit, wisdom, hope, faith, compassion and creativity. They count for far, far more. I keep having this argument with mum these days that it's not our brains we need to listen to ... it's our heart...But she seems to be under the illusion that intelligence, decency and frankly 'adam boodan' has a direct relationship with a piece of paper that is either your bachelor or doctorate!!!....Please Mother...was all I could say today to end that argument....although I am pretty sure it will crop up again!

People can get hold of the wrong end of the stick for a variety of reasons. They may misunderstand what is being said. Or they may be so excited by a particular word, in a particular sentence, that they can hear nothing else. Sometimes, wishful thinking gets the better of them. Sometimes, fear or prejudice compromises their ability to be analytical. Sometimes I get the feeling that I just maybe one of those people!

Perhaps that is because illusions delight and excite us. We like to witness them and we like to create them too. That's why we put so much attention into packaging. We think hard about how we present ourselves to others, how we dress, how we speak, how we send out certain signs and signals. As if impressions count. Is it, strictly speaking, true? Perhaps not. But nor is it totally false. The key to success these days seems to involve being a good spin doctor.

What makes life truly worth living? What's the best, highest, most wonderful thing a human can aspire to? And, how good does it have to get... and for how long? There are some who believe that if you can manage to spend just a minute of your life, in a state of deep and true enlightenment, the richness of the experience will compensate for decades of darkness...This maybe...but there are so many '?'s !

"Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn." We all know the line from Gone with the Wind. Occasionally, we may utter it, or say something similar. Yet we tend to see detachment as an unsatisfactory sentiment. We want to be engaged, involved, connected and committed. We feel that to be cold is to be callous. Perhaps so, but to be heated is to be helpless. But maybe it is wiser inorder to be a force for good , to be able to stand back and look at life objectively.

Can we really make a difference if we try? Or are we like children in a car on a fairground ride? We press on an imaginary accelerator. We stamp on a make-believe brake. We kid ourselves that our actions are having an impact but things would be just the same if we were to sit perfectly still. Now I am not trying to say that we are powerless. We all need to know the difference between the things we can change and the things we can't. Perhaps this is not just so that we can be spared unnecessary angst, there is a practical purpose. If we use up our vital time and energy pursuing impossible objectives, we will end up wasting the resources that might otherwise have been put to a truly constructive use. But if we seek success perhaps we should take energy away from a pointless pursuit and give it all to a worthwhile cause...only if everyone could undrestand that!

Perhaps mice compete fiercely with other mice. Perhaps they argue about whose whiskers are longest, and whose noses twitch the most. But to us, they are still just mice. We humans also spend a lot of time weighing ourselves up against others. We wonder what they've got that we haven't... and vice versa. Yet the only folk on this earth who are truly worth looking up to, are the one's who don't look up to (or down on) anyone.

Isn't it strange how the wheel of destiny turns so that those who you used to dream of the most are now emerge in your subconscious as nightmares!...So that you catch yourself waking up sweating and terrified....ummm....I don't like where
this is all going...

Still shaken by last nights nightmare, I did something I rarely ever do...flipped to the horoscope section of the paper this morning; In big fonts under Aries it said:

Someone appreciates you more than you realise. Someone cares more than you know. Someone wants to help you and this someone has more power than you perhaps give them credit for. Don't feel obliged to struggle on alone, or to prove that you can cope without help. The assistance you need will always be available if only you can find the humility to ask for it. Work generally on the assumption that your plan is a wise one and that you are in the right place at the right time. For it is, and you are!

Well, that is totally irrelevant to the dream...but perhaps a relief...the trouble is; I am struggling to identify the person of whom the cosmic powers so confidently talk about!