When your car breaks down, you send for the roadside repair service. But who tows away the tow-truck when the tow-truck breaks down? If you are experiencing emotional anxiety, you can consult an expert psychologist. But who gives therapy to the therapist?

Homeopaths believe that the less of a substance you employ, the more powerful it becomes. This idea intensely annoys the scientifically minded. They do not understand the subtle, etheric, esoteric principles upon which such semi-magical preparations are based. But they have a similar problem accepting other unprovable phenomena. They refuse to acknowledge the existence of love - or divine inspiration. There may be little logic in that but If I apply it to what goes on around me there's an awful lot of poetry and power in it.

What do you need if you want to make a dream come true? Energy? Commitment? Luck? Faith? Belief? Probably, we need all of the above - but perhaps not in quite the quantity we might imagine. Sometimes, we have to strive with all our might to get our heart's desire. Sometimes, we only have to lift a finger. But then, if one is feeling unduly pessimistic, like I do now...and most of the time... even the lifting of a finger can seem like an exhausting and pointless task.

I have another question while we are here....well more than one question...no point in haggleing ....Does the course of true love ever run smooth? Are the genuinely great and the good invariably destined to face constant challenge? Must the most talented people on our planet also be the most tortured? Must the most blessed be saddled with the heaviest burdens? I only ask because... Well, I suspect this is all a plot... although there's something in this situation now, which is extremely bitter sweet. But then, what else could it be? Would I really ever have things any other way?

Don't you sometimes get the feeling that wanting something can be more fun than actually having it? and when that unattainable item is lodged in your imagination, twinkling away like a breathtaking jewel, you think about what it would be like if you had it, how it would feel, how it would change your life? You dream about it, and the next day you embroider the fantasies a little more and have the same pleasures of longing all over again. But if you actually bought it, you would take it home, put it on a shelf and that would be that...umm I wonder if my current saga is just as simple as that!

No point in pretending that things are ideal - or almost ideal. A little tweak, here or there, in some slightly-flawed situation, is not going to sort me out. There's something more basic and fundamental amiss. That's the bad news.

I really feel I am facing a race against time...There are certain ways in which I maybe able to reduce the pressure I feel now - and I should employ them all!... Maybe self-imposed deadlines can and should be reviewed. I have enough on my plate just dealing with the tasks which are universally accepted as urgent…focusing on your MBA...getting on the right track with career...clearing your issues with your bank manager (we seem to need to resolve some issues and maybe our differences...just because I have no money in my bank account doesn’t mean he has to go ahead and put an stop on my credit card now is it!! :P )

I need to be superhuman to achieve a flawless result in a situation like the one I now face. So as you can see there doesn't seem to be any good news to give…

The good news could be that, I know...once I concede as much and become willing to instigate the appropriate major alterations, I will soon see what needs to be done. It may well involve hard work and compromise, but, at least, I will be truly constructive. And the progress that I make will benefit me for the rest of my days!....Discovery of the life time as u can see....

But that leads me to my usual...blah blah blah....

Some one read my fortune today...with one of those strange card game things...it all started really good ...you know...like 'Your heart is stuck somewhere... (Delet pishe yeki gir kardeh!) ' ... and oh... 'look two hearts are really close together' ... and apparently there is something very crucial when there is an Ace of Clubs and an Ace of Hearts lined up...'But'...damn there is always a 'but'...'There is also a black jack guarding the heart'...woohoo...tell me something I don't know...according to my so called fortune teller...this is a very difficult task and would never come about and I better forget about it...duh!